While I always had some what of a faith, I never really truly let go of control in my life. I meditated, opened myself up to religious teachings, even did service work, but in the core of me I was still reticent to believe the truth there was really a big force at play (or that I didn't have to work hard or make sure things happened in life). 

This year with Covid, with not being able to truly be with friends and family in a way that I have in the past, and also in in trusting that there must be some greater good going on with all of the hardships this year (Covid, social injustice, elections...) I truly chose to let go. I believe with all of my heart now that love does conquer everything, that the role of friend, family member, colleague requires nourishing others, but mainly now opening up to the pleasure and pain of healthy relationships and not letting go when things get hard.

For the first time I trust God or a higher being to truly take the reigns and me not worry about the goals I am trying to achieve. For the first time I am letting go and trusting that things will work out the way that they should and now opening up within to fully letting go not only but now opening up to  healthy partnerships in a way that I never could have by trying to control the outcome.

I am now fully surrendered to trust, to love, to devotion, but now also to true faith in something bigger and no longer holding back from once and for all laying down all of my need to control and wisely opening up my arms to say thanks for whatever arises and/or whatever leaves for my whole being now knows that it is the only way for me to fully blossom into the best version of me.

What do you need to lay down and/or let go of?

Now that I am elevating my energy physically (through working out daily), emotionally (through developing who I am in relationship to others), mentally (through working in deeper communities of trust), and spiritually (through time blocking deeper conversations no more but letting my body now guide me through in difficult decisions as well as meditating much more regularly in depth) I am seeing just how strong I can be. As a result the power within me is growing and I am becoming the best version of me that I can possibly be.